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So I have a really great friend in Maryland,about 15 min away from me. We used to be at the same church untill I moved. :( Anyway I am still in contact with her. I tell her everything..like when i am having a bad day...or just dumb things that people say here. Funniest thing ever was she told me I could probably make a blog about all the funny things people say and do here. It would be a hit. HA. But im sure someone would eventually see it and not be a fan of me talking about them. But come on!!! Some of the comments I recieve are awful. And you are a sister from my church? No wonder people look down on us! I have a really hard time fitting in. Being a young parent of 2 children, my husband has worked some pretty wierd hours the past few years.He is currently on a good one now, but has to commute 1 hour each day. The hardest thing for me I think is that I always feel judged. Maybe I blow it up in my own mind and people dont really think alot of me. But you know that feeling where you look over and someone is looking at you while the other one wispers. HA thats me.!! So most of the ladies I do go to church with all have big homes...I know for some people its not important..because a big home is alot of work..something I could never keep up with. I do always have it in my mind that my life sucks because I dont have alot of space to work with and decorate the way I want. Like I would LOVE to have a fireplace. ughhh so envious :( But I do know deep down that wont bring me smiles everyday. I will probably complain about how things keep getting piled on it and it never gets used. lol. BUT somtimes it is nice to wish there were things you had in life.And no matter how upsetting it is that I could never afford anything larger than my small 2 level 3 bedroom townhouse. I have to be ok with that. Because I know that even though people may judge me or not want to be my friend because we arnt the same financially. I know that my heavenly father loves me! I know that I am a great mother! I have a great husband who loves us, and works so hard for all that we have! I have the gospel of jesus christ in my life, and I know that he will always watch over me and protect me. I know that even if I dont get all the "things" I want in life, But that the things I do have like family will last FOREVER! That having a huge home isnt as important as having a HAPPY home. I far more want love, peace and joy in my home rather than any item money can buy. Because without our families the kingdom of god could not be created. This is why we are here, and I know that i have a purpose! I know that I have weaknesses(like cleaning..yuck) But I also know I have talents, that almost overcome those weaknesses and remind me that we ALL have work to do. And I am just happy to say that I know our savior looks out for each and everyone one of us and I know that one day my life will make complete sense and I will have all the riches I could even imagine as long as I continue to be a loving sister to ladies from my church even if they may not be great because hey we dont all have to be best friends and try to One up the other. In gods eyes we are all equal and thats the way it will be in the next life, so why not practice now right?....